Do not seek the light. See it. Do not look for beauty. Be it. Do not search for Self. Know it. Let the birdsong teach you. Let the sunrise break your heart open. Let every breath remind you of sudden miracles.
Allah knows what your silent heart wants. Even if you don’t include it in your prayers. He hears what your heart whispers. He may not give it to you now but someday, when you least expect it, things will happen in the best possible way.